Thursday, November 20, 2008

"Sir, the program is not compiling. But everything is perfect you see. There must be something wrong with the compiler. What do I do?". A very confident first year undergraduate student asked me during my lab duty. It is a part of my teaching assistantship. I hate being called "sir"!!!!

JAVA is a language I know very little!! Still it has not been that much of a problem to be a lab TA of a first course on JAVA programming but the weekly duty of 3 hours used to be quite tiresome.

The guy was not ready to accept that it is highly unlikely that anything is wrong with the extensibly tried, tested and used commercial compiler inbuilt in LINUX. It was shortly discovered that a stray semi-colon was causing all the trouble.

I had been given a different job initially. I was supposed to help the instructor in designing assignment problems. This is an institute level course and is compulsory for all UG freshers of IIT Kanpur.

The instructor is a young professor who seems to be extremely sincere in teaching the new students the basics of programming. Unfortunately I could not do justice to the job I was initially assigned. I was subsequently moved to the lab. Though sir told me " I want you to be in the lab as some lab TAs are expressing their interests in participating in problem designing..I want to give them a chance"...I strongly believe the main cause was my unsatisfactory performance. A very decent sober man that he is, prof. Baswana did not tell me anything on my face. Anyway, I liked my later job much much more!!

In course of my few months' stay at IIT, I have found the institute remarkably different from the university I graduated from. One very pleasing observation has been that, most of the teachers seem to be least bothered about CPI/marks/grades, etc. Unlike JU most of them really have the mind to teach. so I found the academic culture very different. naturally B.Tech final year and dual degree students are as expected much more competent than most of us. Bright chaps that they are( the cutoff for admission in our department is typically an all India rank better than 100 in IITJEE), they are groomed into complete enginners in 4 years.

Also I found all the staffs of IIT, taken from the bhaiyas serving food in mess to the people in different administrative offices, very much dedicated to their jobs. My experience has so far been very different and very bitter...as in JU I was used to receiving very hostile kind of response from staffs most of the times. A few days back the sweeper of our wing of the hostel( The 4th hall of residence!! I have been told by seniors that this hostel of IIT Kanpur is of great historical importance!!) on his own offered me to carry out an "intensive clean-up operation" in my room( it became very much necessary although..) , something really hard to imagine in any other place.

Despite many fond attributes of this place, the first semester has been very very painful for me. I doubt whether anybody can even imagine a more burdened course structure than ours!!

Dr. Sanjeev Saxena was the instructor of the advanced data structures and algorithms course. The course mostly contained data structures which have been designed keeping amortization in mind. We have been taught Fibonacci heaps, Splay trees, Union Find data structures. I found these things highly involved, extremely complicated, and the purpose of so much of complications was not very readily comprehensible(at least to me). So it was somewhat discouraging. Also given the volume of topics the instructor ran through, we were not in a position to put in a lot of effort in understanding these things in reasonable details, although we had no shortage of reading materials including research papers introducing these concepts. So I ended up having a partial and very sketchy knowledge on these things.

Things were on similar notes in other courses also. cs618 was a graduate course on searching and indexing techniques in databases that I registered for. But had I known how the course would be like, I wouldn't have thought of registering!!! I doubt whether the teacher at all left out any indexing data structure discovered till date!! Most of them being trees of very peculiar and annoying names: k-d-b tree, R-tree, R* tree, R+ tree, M tree, X tree to name a few. Adding to that were extremely heavy implementation assignments and a course project. I didn't think I would complete the course and would get a decent enough grade at the end. But I found the course disgusting...you study a lot of things, all in a superficial outlinish manner. But there might be something wrong with me, as there is a good interest in databases in IITK CSE and there are reasons to believe that prof. Anab Bhattacharya(instructor of cs618) has to some extent served to arouse that interest. Prof. Bhattacharya is a graduate from JU( after that a phd from University of California at Santa Barbara...but why the hell did he return!! he could have stayed there!!) but I hope that all JU BE's are not as disgusting!

I got a zero in second mid semester examination in Quantum Computation. Though quite a few students, including some btech 4th year students, also got zero..yet getting a zero is not a matter to take pride in! I took up this course with a lot of hope(the name sounded interesting), but the course has let me down. The instructor Dr. Piyush Kurur speaks some hindi despite being a (probably) Keralite( Though my hindi is poor, it's supposedly better than the Hyderabadi hindi that the Andhra guys out here speak. But one Tamil batchmate of mine seems to be completely ignorant of Hindi. Same seems to the case with a Keralite though his btech is from NIT Calicat, a well-known national technical college. Now I am trying to invent a thumb rule for the highly confusing gender thing!!). He is also a fresh phd from Institute of Mathematical sciences, Chennai. He told me all is required for the course is some elementary linear algebra and some mathematical maturity. But this seemingly humble pre-requisite seemed to pose a very alarming barrier(Some examples can make it clearer: "Today I am going to talk about the basic differences between classical and quantum information theory" I did not take any course on information theory in my BE..he didnt even care to ask. Or "Don't you know Chinese Remainder Theorem?I suppose it has been covered in your course on discrete mathematics. I myself taught the course..how could I have left it out?" forgetting completely that among his students are some who did not graduate from this institute). Anybody would pity me knowing that I failed to understand most of the questions in the mid semester examination, not to speak of answering them! Though I worked hard in last month, did reasonably in end sem exams, and is hoping to get a B if not an A, I myself know I have gained almost nothing from the course.

Datastreaming algorithm is a course I might say I did more or less well in. Dr Sumit Ganguly taught the course. I liked it..it indroduced a new model of computation, it's purposes, difficulties and objectives. It also gave me a feel of randomized algortihms, what it means to say that an algorithm has probabilistic performance guarantees. I also saw some really nice proofs of lower bounds of space complexities of some problems based on excellent information theoretic arguments or reduction from a known hard problem. Also we learnt some new and really delightful methods for solving probability problems and computing expectations of random variables but however one can say one is supposed to learn these in a first course on probability theory. But I could'nt put in much effort due to loads imposed by other courses. Nevertheless, it might not be a lie to say that I have gained something from this course.

So this, in short, is how my start off in the new place has been like. I am looking forward to go home in the winter holidays in a few days!! Tralalalalala!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, September 18, 2008

It's real hell out here!!!!!

Taking to writing after a long break...
Anybody not experiencing it can hardly imagine the pestering pressure that we are being kept under at IITK..but it's very disheartening that the faculties deliberately suppressed this point when raised in the faculty meeting..
I came here with a lot of hope to enjoy a good academic environment, but I must say that the curriculum is so loaded that my 2 month's stay over here has been far from pleasant...it's rather bitter..

Big implementation assignments always frighten me(I understand it's not a matter to take pride in)..but the tight deadlines and a multitude of assignments is exhausting me and,I'm afraid, I might shortly start to abhor studying.Many guys are of the opinion that there is a point in keeping you under this pressure..you end up learning something.Even if that is true,the process of learning is extremely painful..

I still remember the mental burden that I had in the week preceding the first mid semeter examination.The examination went awefully bad but as the result came out, I found that my relative score(which is what matters) has not been that bad..
Worse is that academic obligations have completely taken us up.We hardly find time for playing or even going through newspapers at some length.Monotony and exhaustion have spanned our life..
Looking forward to go to Kolkata in the Pujas.This break is very much needed..

Saturday, July 12, 2008

I wish to know what others think.

Do they also think the same way I do?

What do people mean by worthy usage of money?I feel that a person is never complete if he lives only for himself. I want to know if everybody craves internally for coming to some use of the world.That's what makes our life worth living.At least I feel so...

My opinion is when we have immense money at our disposal, no matter how we earn it, we are also endowed with "immense" responsibility to put the money to some use of the world.But finding out how is supposedly not that easy..

How does a rich man find productive ways of spending his money?I'm at confusion, somebody help...

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Made it to IIT Kanpur

I find things turn out to be remarkably simple and easy for me when it comes to determination of future course at some critical juncture.This is how my WBJEE rank permitted me a seat in JU.A few months back, after writing the GATE exam I did not imagine that the result of the exam which went awefully bad for me is going to permit me admission at IITK. But it's peculiar as who knows better that I have seldom been serious about my studies?Still I didn't ever have to worry as to where I would go to after my current program terminates.It's simply strange!!
I did not get a direct admit,though.I was called for a two-stage written test/interview screening process. The IIT Kanpur campus is awesome.Some 18-20 kms from the town is the institute campus with exquisite natural beauty.Peacocks are seen around aplenty and I saw a peacock with it's colourful tail expanded dancing in full glory, for the first time in my life.Although their shyness disappointed me. I once had the fortune of seeing a peacock unfolding it's tail with the fullest of romantic expressions in it's gesture..but no sooner did it see me stop and stare at it,than it folded down it's tail and shied away.
Besides peacock there is a wide variety of birds,animals and even reptiles in the campus.Everyday I used to wake up in the hostel hearing the mixed cacophony of different birds, in which the harsh sound of the peacock was the most prominent. The students said that there are some 150 nilgai's in the campus though I didn't see one.The campus is really big, I hardly traversed even a small fraction of it.Still I confused roads(highways they are, so to speak, running amidst the campus!!!) and went around in circles several times.
The written test was smooth and peaceful.Some 74 students(including myself) out of 134 were shortlisted for interviewing.
The interview started but shortly ended for that day.Mine was held on the next day.
The students went on going in and coming out.They narrated their interview experiences and it was really disheartening to hear that IIT professors may be really cruel at you in case you turn out academically weak (in their perception).But all the people in the panel were very polite and soft-spoken.So their comments were coming as sugar coated bitter pinch.A Chennai guy was said on face "It is not the proper way to study though I know it's not your fault.You don't know anything".Very gently said though.The guy was finally taken, as were many other people who thought their interviews had been disasters.
I don't know why but the professors were very merciful on me.But the terrifying stories that I heard were making me tremble in the panel.The interview started with a standard question on a graph theory problem after I said that my favourite subjects are algorithms and discrete mathematics.Still I took minutes together to think the answer out.I was so frightened.
The remaining part of the interview went smoothly.They were really adept in confusing people.But when I was leaving I heard one professor saying to another "I think he has done quite well" and I delightfully went back to the hostel.
I found the reults the day I returned on the net.Now looking forward to go over there for admission confirmation and all.

Friday, April 4, 2008

Tata Institute lets me down

Today is an illustrious day in my life.Though it ended with a tint of bitterness,still I don't mind.

I woke up in the usual time with a lot of tension.The deadlines of all the applications are approaching while I am yet to even start applying.It rained heavily all through the night.It wasn't raining when I woke but after a short while it started afresh..adding to my agitation.

The drama started even later when I discovered I was not finding the file containing all my original certificates,marksheets and semester xam grade cards!!You can imagine how I felt.I was completely taken by panic and gave a ring to my mother' office leading her rush home with supreme anxiety.I don't believe words can explain how the next few hours went for me.I was completely puzzled as to what future might await me without those invaluable documents!!

The file was,thank god,found eventually..in the home itself..giving me ever untasted relief and happiness.I went for an evening stroll with a friend.On returning home I found that the TIFR results are out.My name's being absent in the list did not surprise me,though..

It was too many incidents to occur in a single day.Still,had the end been sweet!!!But to be frank, had I been able to make it,it would have been no less surprising.I have always been extremely insincere and devoid of motivation in my studies....never putting in effort or being serious.Still I have been able to bag two jobs and a decent enough GATE score.

What more can I ask for???

Saturday, March 29, 2008

Everybody seems to have become mad to make our last few days at JU special and memorable.Much like anything valuable ,we were not aware of the invaluable period of time we have been living, and as it's end is nearing we are becoming more and more morbid.It's now an everyday matter to stay back in college till late evening and chatting our hearts out.....or lying on the maathh in a circle while somebody takes snaps from different angles.It's nice to see a 'pleasant change'(courtesy:Adway;refer Arpan's orkut profile: http://www.orkut.com/Profile.aspx?uid=15886989765777060493)
in everybody that makes even bookworms to come down to the field and take batsman's stance for, perhaps, the first time in their lives.As everybody would agree, these four wonderful years are too precious to all of us.It's in our college life that we savoured liberty for the first time(be it liberty to choose project superviser or the liberty to decide the schedule of semester exams) and have been gifted with friendships we would die to cherish lifelong.As we see ourselves in a journey that has landed us to our youth starting off from our childhood transforming us, to our surprise, inside out...right before our eyes...these four priceless years
would definitely be a cherishable memory of profound importance to everyone of us...and several years down the line we....expectedly a lot transformed...all of us..would feel pleasure in recollecting that all of us...then endowed with burdens and obligations of profession and others..were once together in a class filled with life and laughter.

Friday, March 28, 2008

Making the start-off

As a friend was telling yesterday,the people we come across in our life have different facets of their personalities that are seldom manifested amongst a multitude of people.Everybody has a separate world entirely of his/her own.....which nobody save,maybe, a few selected really close individuals, knows of.I doubt how much of our inner self is actually revealed in public accounts like blogs!!!But like many people I know,I myself also sometimes feel like scribbling down accounts which may be anything ranging from description of a routine working day to depiction of my disturbed mind after a domestic row.Writing is something I know I am far from being good at...but I hope I shall improve on it in subsequent times.
Enough for tonight!!I don't promise regularity in writing blogs....as I write out of my wish and not under any obligations.